I am such an idiot

Basically....I'm having troubles with my only friend. And it pains me to know that I started it. I'm really pissed at myself. Ugh..... Oh and Happy belated Thanksgiving to the Americanos.

Grades are Failing

Ugh, I think I'm really losing it. Well losing more, that is. I'm pretty sure some of you think I've completely lost it but apparently I can still lose more. But like in all of my tests, I make the dumbest mistakes in the world. It's unbelievable! Gah!. Ok that's over....hopefully so will that. I wish I was just a bit smarter....

Depression and Art

As odd as this sounds, I wish I could be become depressed again. Yeah, I know, no one wants that, do they? But still, with depression, I tend to get more drawing ideas, which to me, is much more important than almost everything. It was actually depression that gave birth to my drawing ability. So now I'm at a catch-22, I'll never be happy or at least not depressed if I continue drawing. But if I stop drawing, I'll get depressed. Ha! So odd how the world works. Since my latest depression bout, I've got something close eight drawing ideas and an idea for a novel. I wonder what would happen if I stand near the edge of a cliff too long...I'll probably get twenty or something like that. Anyways, that's my little rambling for today.